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[Oct. 6th, 2005|04:10 pm] |
we're going back home this tuesday! i'm so excited!!!!!! i cannot wait! we're staying at bradley's parents house while we look for jobs and and an apt. i cant wait to see everyone! i miss all of my friends so much!!!!
it's been nice to visit with all my family and stuff but i'm ready to go back home. i've been gone 5 weeks, it's just time. i hope everything works out because i'm sick of things getting fucked up.
ALSO!!!!!! Bradley's 19th birthday is October 17th! Of course i had big huge plans for the party before all this hurricane busines. but now i don't know what we're going to do. regardless, we're going to have fun and everyone who's in new orleans and surrounding areas has to come. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2005|03:46 pm] |
so i've been in alabama for like a week now. i'm ready to leave. i really want to come home and get an apartment but it's so difficult. i might be trying to buy a really really cheap car so that i can drive down and bring Eva with me and then look for somewhere to live once i get there. because i keep trying to find housing online and i just can't. so i dont know. this whole situation is confusing.
when i come home, i have nothing to come home to! i feel like once i get there and start to look for a house, there just wont be any available. AH. theres so much to think about. it's so obnoxious. i miss everyone!!!!!!! i heard lakebiew will be open on the 10th, so maybe i'll be in new orleans by then. |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2005|06:59 pm] |
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goddamnit. nola is flooding again! can we not catch a fucking break!? new york is fine but Bradley doesn't want to wait around for the snow. I don't like Ithaca as much as i thought i would. We're taking a train Sunday to Alabama to stay with my mom for a few weeks or months or however long it takes to get back into New Orleans. We just wanna go home. being displaced is so miserable. and living out of a suitcase in other people's houses is so not hot.
blahhhhhhh. i hate this. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2005|07:41 pm] |
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Me and B are in New York now. We took a bus to chicago from alabama and spent like 2 weeks there. it's a fun place to visit but i just don't see myself living there. we played around town and spent our red cross money on fun stuff but then we decided we should just go to new york. i really wanted to use this opportunity to spend a little time with my brother. we took a long ass train ride all the way to syracuse and now we're in Ithaca. We've been here a few days and it's nice. but it still just doesn't feel right. i guess the only place we'd both be happy is home, in new orleans.
so right now... hopefully jenn and jill are breaking into my house to see if there is water in it.
I miss my house! I miss my friends! I miss my bar! I miss my stuff! I miss my job!
anyway. we're probably going to fly to alabama in a week or two. i might as well use this time to hang out with the rest of my family too. Me and bradley are taking lots of pictures so we'll have stuff to show everyone when we finally get home. We miss and love all of you.
OH! and there was a ghost in chicago that fucked with us in Bradley's cousin's house. it sucked. |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2005|06:26 pm] |
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I don't know if anyone still reads this because i never ever post anymore but i just want to let everyone know what's going on with me.
My house is underwater most likely. i've lost everything i own except for a few changes of clothes, 3 pairs of shoes, and my big hatbox full of pictures. I have about $50 left to my name. My city, my life, is gone. The one permanent thing i had was New Orleans. I worked so hard to get there and made a good life for myself. True i wasn't in school and i was broke alot of the time, but I had the best circle of friends a girl could ever ask for, the best bar i've ever been to in my entire life, and my dad's house (no matter how many times i left it, it was always there waiting for me). I spent the best years of life so far there. And now it's all pretty much gone.
Yeah they're going to rebuild it somewhat. And maybe in 6 months we'll be allowed back in. I'll get to drive around and see remnants of what my life used to consist of. Maybe. Who knows! it'll never be the same. Everything's all fucked up now.
Bradley and I evacuated to Baton Rouge together so at least I have him. Together we've lost everything. We're driving to Birmingham, AL to spend a day with my family there before we go to Chicago on Wednesday. We decided that since we have no where else to go we might as well start over there. I don't get to take Eva with me, she's staying in Alabama with the Studdards, so i'm pretty upset about that. But hopefully, together we'll make enough money to fly her up after we get our own apartment and stuff. I don't know! Nothing's for sure anymore.
Thanks to everyone who helped us out and I love all of you.
So if anyone I love is ever in Chicago, give me a call (504) 810-4880. |
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[Jun. 30th, 2005|08:02 pm] |
so about 5 seconds after bradley left for texas i realized that a.) i'm an idiot and b.) i'm in love with him. I decided to break up with jill the next day, jenn moved out a few minutes after that. then he and i spent the next 2 weeks on the phone every day with i miss yous and i love yous. he realized that he was in love with me too. i lost a handful of friends in the process, but it's worth it. i was stupid to think that i had to make it work with someone else just because me and bradley messed it up the first time. and he knows how stupid he ws by blowing me off when i was falling for him in the beginning. it's all good in the hood now cause he came back from texas early to be with me and we are just so happy and so in love and it's wonderful. how often do you get second chances? i hardly ever do so i'm taking this one and running with it.
i quit smoothie king right before i went to atlanta. and today i got two new jobs. pac sun by day, busboy at la cuisine by night. so hopefully i will be able to pay off the apt, my credit card, and my mom in the next month or so.
back to altanta, we had a fucking bombass time. Me, Ashleigh, Brad, and Baron went up together and just fucking rocked the shit out of the ATL. We went to a ghetto ass black gay man bar and had a blast. their drag queens all had real tits. and i also fufilled my Pride goal -- making out with a totally hot butch black bitch. atlanta is so awesome and beautiful. they have the best music and everyone drives a nice car and there's no racial tension. i'd really like to move there some day.
anyway i just thought i would update everyone a little bit. |
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[Jun. 11th, 2005|12:03 pm] |
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So uh... I'm updating for the first time in a very very long time. I can't think of anything important to say really. I'm kind of cut off from the internet for weeks at a time. Right now I'm at Kate's waiting for her to get dressed so we can go to the dog park with everyone and all the babies.
Jenn and I are still best friends, despite the occasional mutual urge to want to choke each other to death. We fight like a married couple sometimes but it's all good in the hood because I love her. Living with another person is always hard. But once we get past the first couple months, things will be fine, i'm sure. Everyone has their bumps in the road but it's nothing we can't handle. Besides, if either one of us is ever acting to retarded, Brad is always there to put us in our place and take us down a peg or two. The only man in my life, besdies my daddy, that i will ever love!
Jill and I are together and that's really awesome. I don't know what it is, maybe it's because she's older and a little more mature than anyone i've ever dated, but she just treats me really really good. I've never been with anyone who is nice, or honest, or not codependent, or actually respects my thoughts and feelings. She's just a really fun person to be with and I like her alot. With her I can just be myself because we were already friends. I dont have to try to impress her or anything stupid like that. Plus, i get like the best oral sex of my entire life.
A whole bunch of Bradley shit has happened but it's really not worth talking about. Bottom line, we both fucked it up, i miss him a little, I will always think about 'what if' but he's moving away and i'm moving on so it just is what it is. It wasn't 50/50. He messed things up a whole lot more than i did. But i did my own share of stupid things with him. But that's what happens ya know? We just weren't meant to be. Maybe another time and another place.
I hate my job. More and more every single day. Dave and I just aren't getting along anymore. I don't like anyone that works there anymore except Laura, who i love. All the other people I liked have already quit. I'm trying to get a part time job at pacsun with this really hot lesbian boss and a cool lesbian manager. and then my boy denis is trying to hook me up with a job as a runner at Muriel's in the quarter. I think i would like that a whole lot more. I'm just not getting paid enough to deal with all the Smoothie King bullshit.
Meanwhile, I miss the piss out of Leigh and I really just want you to come visit me and see my shitty apartment and meet my girlfriend and hang out with my friends. I love you and i'm sorry about the weird pattern of our phonecalls. Please come to New Orleans soon.
Atlanta is in two weeks. Me, Brad, Jenn, Baron, Laura, Jill, Larry, Scott and are going. i cannot wait to see my mom and becky. it's going to be so much fun!!!!!!!!!! Pride is the highlight of my summer, until I go to Destin in August, which i'm really super pumped about.
Anyway, Kate is out of the shower now so we are going back to Jill's and then meeting brad and jenn downtown. I hope I've semi-updated everyone on my life! There are more things going on, I just don't have time to write about them. |
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[May. 9th, 2005|04:04 pm] |
haven't updated in forever.
Me and Jenn got an apartment! it's awesome and we love it. Our neighbors and landlord kind of suck but other than that it's great.
I don't even feel like writing about anything else. I'll update for real when I have more time and get the internet in my apt. |
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[Apr. 19th, 2005|07:51 am] |
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hold me instead.
So this weekend was absolutely awesome. Well just Sunday really. Me and Jenn went mudriding at the spillway with Jill, Larry, and Bridget. Jenn and i totally underestimated how much fun we would have. Also, I underestimated how hot jill's ass would look in her little red dirtbike pants. i really liked riding on the back of her dirtbike holding on to her for dear life. And for some reason, they trusted jenn enough to let her drive the 4 wheeler with me on the back of it. we're getting the hang of it and then we see some mud and jenn's like 'hey yeah lets go through that' but we were going way to fast and when she went to turn, we flew off!! we both landed face first in the mud and it was great. later we all got into a huge mud wrestling fight that was totally hot, a little disgusting, and lots of fun at the same time. jenn pushed me in like 3 times but i threw my mud ridden sock at her head so it's cool. we were covered in mud from head to toe and had to rinse off in a muddy pool of water. the ride home was yucky but it was totally worth it. we had a fucking blast.
then we showered and went to jills and watched L word and chilled and then overslept for work the next morning. and now our whole entire bodies are sore from all the strenuous activity.
also we got to see Brad twice this weekend but only for like a couple hours at a time. which is just like cockteasing! i want him for the whole weekend! he says he might be going to dallas for the summer instead of spending it in new orleans which is really upsetting. i want him to do whatever he has to do to be happy but i'm gonna miss the piss out of him even more than i already do. i love that nig.
i went to bradleys saturday night and slept over which was nice because i hadn't seen him in like 2 weeks. i think i've only slept in my own bed maybe 3 times in the past 2 weeks. this has been a really good sex week.
I just want pleasure I just want heaven,
I just want you tonight, tonight
cuz this is going somewhere
feels like forever
can I bite your hands? your neck? alright |
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[Apr. 13th, 2005|11:11 pm] |
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i bit off way more than i could chew...
we all had a fucking shitty ass night last night. how could so many people be in the wrong place at the wrong time all at once like that?
AHHH i just dont know what i'm doing with my life here! of course i'm overexaggerating. all that's really wrong is that i'm trying to juggle 3 people right now and that's just a horrible idea. me and bradley are off and on and i'm just letting time dissipate that one, rachel finally broke up with her girlfriend but she's just moving way too fast for me, and jill is just... fabulous. there's nothing wrong with jill. everyone else involved is just crazy. it just freaked me out last night that all 3 of them could be in the same room and i wouldn't know what to do. yeah, boo hoo for me, all this attention, what am i even complaining about?
daphne is leaving saturday. i'm not that upset about it anymore really. we've both moved on and that's so awesome. just the fact that we can sit and talk on the phone and tell each other about who we're dating and not get upset or weirded out means that we're okay. we're always going to be connected, no matter what. i'm happy for her and i wish her the best and i'm just glad we got to this point before she had to leave.
there are things to be happy about though! for instance, everything i touch turns to gay! amanda, this really cool girl i work with, is totally into chicks now. is there something about me that brings out the homo hiding in everyone? it's as if i'm oozing queerness and like a little lesbian leprechaun, i'm just spreading it all around with rainbows and happiness.
also, my brother is coming in this weekend! i haven't seen him since christmas, so that's good. and i'm going to be a manager at smoothie king and i'm asking for a raise that i really should get, so that's exciting. not everything in the world is bad. i'm just having a bad day.
and this song is so good. i'm obsessed with it. at least i have that! |
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[Apr. 10th, 2005|12:42 pm] |
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tell me how hard
tell me how fast
baby tell me how high i must go
so last night was a blast!!! me and jenn took a road trip to Baton Rouge to see Brad. Becca, Sam, and Laura came and then Jill, Larry, and Scott met us too. We all went to Splash and i had the best time i'm ever had there. With a little valium and an insane amount of malibu and coke, i had an absolutely fabulous time! Also I saw my cousin Claire which was totally awesome. I was walking to the bathroom and I was like 'hey she's cute...and familiar...wait...omg! my cousin!' We got crunk and danced all night and just totally rocked that shit. it was soooooo much fun!
After we left splash, we had a big huge sleep over at Brads!!! pasta salad, half full beer cans, and taco bell all over the place. jenn and brad wrestled with each other half the night and i swear i saw both their asses like 5 times each, if not more. brad and the girls slept in his room, larry, scott, and jenn were are sprawled out on the couches and me and jill got the floor, aww yeah nigga! that shit was tight, yo!
oh and rachel called me while i was totally fucked up and we talked for like 20 minutes and she tells me that she's recording the whole conversation to remind me in the morning how drunk and silly i sound. but she and missy broke up again so i might just have a chance!
so i think me and jenn are going to the strawberry fest thing later and then head over to jills for L word! yay!!! |
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[Apr. 7th, 2005|07:51 am] |
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it's weird when two different people say the same thing at different times.
everything with bradley is cool. i saw him tuesday night and thought he hated me but then we talked and it was okay. i started feeling drunk and sick and he was putting ice on my face and then it got all sexual and then i almost collapsed and he carried me out of the bar. we hung out last night and i slept over at his new house, which is like 4 minutes away from me, so that's awesome. i love waking up with him because he's just so damn cute in the morning. his mohawk is all crazy and his eyes don't open all the way. it's just adorable.
daphne is leaving on the 16th. we've been hanging out this week just to spend some time with each other before she's gone. she's going to work for Norwegian Cruise Line on a boat in Hawaii and won't be back for 6 months or more. i'm going to miss her alot. and we've been getting along as friends so much better now. our friendship is at the place now where we're comfortable talking about the things that we couldn't talk about right after we broke up. she's been acting alot more grown up lately and that's good. i'm excited for her.
sam might get a job at smoothie king! how much fun would it be to have me, jenn, laura, and sam all on the same shift!? i don't think working could get any more fun.
did you know that ligers are real? my mom saw some in georgia. they look like tigers with mullets.
leigh & meagan -- call me back you grosky little biotchs.
well... thats odd... |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|04:56 pm] |
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labels just put too much pressure on things. i like him, yes, but i like alot of people. i'm not ready for a totally exclusive committed relationship, especially with someone who is moving away in a couple months. i thought i was ready and i could deal with it, but i'm just not! i'm not that kind of girl. i don't need to be with someone to be happy. in fact i'm happier when i'm with alot of different people at alot of different times. i feel bad about breaking it off so soon and i feel guilty because he was really mean when i told him. but what else was i supposed to do? i tried my best! it sucks though because he probably hates me now and won't ever want to talk to me again.
besides, there a too many other oppurtunities opening up lately.
meanwhile, i'm training to be a manager of smoothie king. i've only been there a few months but i can totally handle it. i'm going to have to start working nights though and that's kind of shitty. as long as he increases my pay a little bit, things will work out fine, but if not, i'm quitting and getting a job as a busboy in a restaurant downtown.
oh and i think we won't have cable or internet for a couple weeks cause we didn't pay our bill. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2005|02:32 am] |
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i always think i should update on livejournal but i don't know what to say anymore. i work like 24/7. if i'm not working, i'm with jenn, and if i'm not with jenn, i'm with bradley.
we're boyfriend and girlfriend now and i'm happy about that. i don't care that he's blown me off, i still like him alot. he's really addictive. he makes me feel good. i like being on his arm and being introduced as his girlfriend. and it's nice to be a girlfriend again.
i miss brad, baron, and leigh because they're all so far away. brad and baron should come home more often and leigh you should visit me.
i've gained 15 lbs since i started working at smoothie king. it's impossible to not eat while you're there. there are just so many oppurtunities for it. i find that lately i'm not even eating because i'm hungry. i'm just eating because i want something that tastes good in my mouth. i think i have to start working out because this little extra poundage is really getting me down.
daphne is moving to hawaii in a couple weeks. she's going to work on a cruise ship for 6 months or something. i know this is what she wants and i think the experience is good for her. we're not friends and we never hang out anymore, but just knowing that she'll be so far away is upsetting to me. if i wanted to talk to her for any reason, i wouldn't be able to get in touch with her. we're supposed to have dinner this week, i guess to sort of say goodbye or whatever.
i should be asleep now. i don't get enough sleep anymore because when i get off work, all i wanna do is go out or hang out with people until like 3am. i haven't even had a full day off in over 2 weeks.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRAD! I LOVE YOU! |
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[Apr. 1st, 2005|10:00 pm] |
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jenn with rylie, me with kali, and jill with monkey at the Dog Day Afternoon in audobon park. it was sooooo much fun!!!! |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2005|09:31 pm] |
omg. my new crush. amanda moore. she's a supermodel AND a lesbian.
  
sorry for all the picture posts but christ on a cross. she's fucking gorgeous. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2005|08:57 am] |
AHHHHHH, britney isn't blonde anymore.
i hate it. it looks horrible. |
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| i will be waiting |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|12:56 am] |
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i dont know what's going on. when i got home, from having a pretty shitty night, i went to sleep, around 3:30ish. I slept until 1pm, woke up, had a bowl of crispix, got back in bed and slept till 5pm... totally wasted the whole day. and for what? why was last night so bad? because i got in a fight with my sister... because i saw daphne at the pub, gross ass guy in tow kissing her neck... because jenn is irritated with me for liking bradley... because bradley was mad at me for getting to toxic later than i planned... i don't know. but i hate when bad nights are followed up by bad days.
fuck it man. i'm just going back to sleep and hopefully when i wake up tomorrow, everything will be better. it'll be warm and sunny, i'll have a big cup of coffee, and then go to work, which will be fun cause i'll be with jenn. i won't let dave get to me. everything will be cool. |
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